entry 1

Today was really uneventful, but also extremely stressful? haha. i dont know. Contradictory, right? whatever. Anyway, today i recieved news that 1, if i take a gap year before college, my family wont help me with payments, and 2, my grandfathers wife's mother is having heart valve surgery. They (family) have also been incessantly hounding me about my upcoming senior year obligations, like the sport im in, signing up for scholarships, applying early to colleges, studying for the sat and act... i still have a good few weeks before school starts. SO STRESSFULL! and i am just a fragile little boy.

lately ive been thinking about long vs shortform content, and the authoritarian data harvesting mass surveilence (aka social media). Im not trying to be tinfoilhat-like or uppity. I mean, im just as much of a social media addict like everyone else now, but im trying to move away from it. To be honest, things are scary where I am right now, especially with palant*r and useless ai slop. it terrifies me to think of how much ive fried my brain by consuming shorform dopamine heroin content over the last year and im really aiming to reclaim my brain or whatever.